hurry up!

thanksgiving break, hurry the eff up. hahaha i can’t WAIT to go home. 5 days….

time is tickin!

I LOVE MY SMALL GROUP

we just spent the past 18 hours or so eating, talking, chillin, watching iris, and having a good time. i can’t express how thankful i am to get to know such an awesome group of girls. who are also very very DOWN. their downness took me by surprise, but i’m embracing it, loving it, and know that we’re gonna make the best of this year

life is good when you’re surrounded by the people you love, and you’re in your comfort zone. after 3.5 years here, berkeley has become my comfort zone and i don’t hesitate to call it my home. a lot of times, it feels more like home than home does!  6 months from now when i graduate and move back to the valley, life will be so different. will i be able to readjust?! haha i guess we’ll see.

this semester has been tiring. physically, emotionally, mentally. i’m drained and have no more energy to spend things other than what’s on my plate now. but i feel the urgency to soak in berkeley as much as i can! so i push myself to try to do more. i hope i don’t burn out……haha so here’s to making the best of what time i have left here!

empire state of mind

in new york, concrete jungle where dreams are made of
there’s nothing you can’t do
now you’re in new york, these streets will make you feel brand new
big lights will inspire you,

let’s hear it for new york, new york, new york~

 

 

winter break 2010. wheeeeee

6 am staff meetings?!

WHO DOES THAT?! hahah i don’t even go to my 8 am classes! my boss emailed me personally telling me i better show up. LOL

working at the pharmacy, i’ve come to realize just how dirty everything is. money is freaking dirty.  after handling registers for 4 hour shifts, i can feel the grossness on my hands and need to take a break to go wash them.  and people are so dirty too! haha we require people to sign a paper to confirm that they received the proper prescription. those pens on the table have been touched my numerous hands, most very dirty. also, i’ve developed a pet peeve! when people lick their fingers to count money or grab their credit cards. i understand it makes it a little easier to grab, count, whatever. but after seeing it so many times a day, and having the people hand the money/card over to me, i feel so infected with other people’s germss. yuck. haha i’ve become slightly germophobic

other than silly things like that at work, things have been good. i had a slight breakdown last week cuz i felt so overloaded with everything, but i feel like releasing that frustration helped, a lot. and i feel like God has been teaching me to let myself lean on the people around me, and not be so stubborn, because i really can’t do it all by myself i am so blessed. each and every day, i’m reminded of how good i have it. my family, friends, small group, class – life is good! i am so undeserving but God is so good. i was so frustrated with all the responsibilities and frustrations that i couldn’t see all the good things. but i see them now! and i’m so thankful

okay. that is all.

 

relief and stupidity

busy bee

omg it’s week 7. already?! as the excitement of the new year dies down, and things should be settling down, life for me has become busier, crazier, and more hectic than ever. I feel like such a burden to people around me, but also i feel burdened with different things too. i don’t know if i can handle it all! i just wanna stop everything for a minute, take a breath, and relax for 2 seconds, and re-energize. as i’m sitting here trying to study for my ib 131 midterm (NOT with diamond….so i’m screwed) i realize i have no motivation to start studying. instead i blog

being busy has made me skip meals. and i NEVER forget to eat my meals. hahah for example, today, i was stressing out about LiNK, midterm, sg, etc etc, that i realized at 4 pm that i hadn’t had anything to eat! my goodness. second time in my life where stress has kept me from thinking about food.

being busy keeps me from thinking about home. i have so many different responsibilities/obligations keeping my mind occupied that i can’t stop to think about how much i miss home. i haven’t been back home since may. i won’t go back til thanksgiving. that’s 6 months straight that i’ll have spent in the bay area. it makes me super sad. but i can’t tell my parents that, cuz then they’ll come drive up the next weekend just cuz i said i wanna see them. hahaah yeah, they love me. i miss them

being busy has also kept me from being a good friend. sorry friends! i’m really trying to balance everything! please forgive me if i don’t give you enough time or love. i promise next semester will be better.

being busy has made me less down. i’d like to say that i was one of the more down people up until this summer. haha” studying? it can waittt. let’s go play! or eat!”  but now, i fail at being down. studying has taken priority over playing. lol i guess it’s a good thing? but i miss those random nights!

haha i read a previous post of mine (i think it was from freshman year) and i talked about enjoying my walk to campus. ” the sun! the pretty flowers! the music! all so lovely” kind of post. hahaah now, i speed walk because my time is precious and i’m usually always late to wherever i need to go. oh how times have changed. senior year is SO DIFFERENT. but i guess that’s a post for another time.

okay. i don’t know what the point of this post was. i just didn’t wanna study. wheee. i guess after 3 hours of procrastinating, it’s time to get started. gbye

i just realized this now, but someone wrote on my whiteboard:

“you will amount to nothing” love, mom.

wtf? haahah who wrote this?! when?! why?!

i need to be nicer. and less harsh with my words.

and i need to study.

the end.

slow down please

the weeks are going by so quickly! so much to do, there’s no time to just sit and relax. oh yeah, unless i screw studying and decide to take a chill day. which i think i will do this week. haahh i like being busy, but at this rate, senior year is gonna fly by without me knowing it!!!

slow it all downnn

on a side note. i was just reminded that i’m a terrible popcorn maker. i confess,  i’ve burnt it multiple times hahaah so what?!

….already?

summer’s almost over. uhh…..what? when did all this time fly by? all the plans i made to find good eats and the beauty of berkeley, explore the city, take advantage of the bay failed because i’m all outta time now.

take away: don’t be so busy during the school year that i miss out on the things that could make my year amazing. it’s hard to gauge cuz i still gotta study and go to work and be a responsible young adult lol but looking at my summer, i’m a little sad that i don’t have more ‘good times’ to show for it……no regrets though. lots of lessons learned!

note: 9 months til graduation O_o …….ALREADY?! 2 more sets of finals, 1 more telebears, 1 more winter/spring break, 1 more fic banquet, til it’s goodbye berkeley…..and hello life after college. definitely not ready to leave yet.

i won’t leave til everything on my list is crossed off. mark my words!