postponing study post #1

these days, i think about how nice and chill life will be post college, after im done with all the busy-ness and responsibilities here at berkeley. i think about all the free time i could have to bake, read books, pick up new hobbies, explore, and exercise. lol. i think about all the home friends that i miss and can’t wait to hang out with all the time because i’m up here.

and then i remember that i forgot how good i have it here. i remember all the new life-long friends that i’ve made, the memories that we share, the good times, even the sucky situations, and i feel so lucky to be here. i love berkeley and everything it comes with. i’ve even gotten used to and grown to love the cool weather and random rain.

i started thinking about the things that i’ll miss once  leave, then decided that it was too early to start thinking about that i should spend that time making the best of what time i have left!

and as i sit here trying to study for my bio quiz, watch a couple webcasts, prep sg lesson, wishing there were more hours in a day, i will think about why God’s placed me here and how i can make  Him happy

hello 2010!

i can’t believe it’s 2010.

i will be turning 22 this year. 21 was so exciting. 22 is so not special.
i graduate college this year! O_o
it’s been 10 years since the y2k craziness when all my parents bought was a box of ramyun and a case of water to sustain us if anything happened. haha good times.

new years resolutions!!

1.) work out twice a week to be healthy!
2.) pay off my credit card debt
3.) get a 4.0 this semester! (gotta shoot for the stars!)
4.) pray every night
5.) get into pharmacy school
6.) make the most of my last semester in college.
7.) learn spanish
8.) improve my korean

that’s all for now

snow

just because i like lists:

things that i look forward to this winter break:

1.) family vacation! it’s been so long!
2.) snow snow snow!
3.) the fun boarding times that come with snow
4.) catching up with people i love back home
5.) making sure my baby cousin zack can recognize me and say my name before i come back up to berkeley. okay, noona is fine too.
6.) new york 2010!
7.) last tahoe trip with ficb. jan 2010.
8.) talking til 3 am at denny’s with christina. LOL
9.) showing up randomly at jennie’s house past midnight to chill/play
10.) eating home cooked food! and maybe learn how to make a few dishes…..maybe…
11.) not having to worry about classes
12.) having no obligations/responsibilities (ie: work)
13.) sleeeping in <3
14.) NRB in la with sg teehee

so excited for break now. must push through these last 15 hours!!!

hurry up!

thanksgiving break, hurry the eff up. hahaha i can’t WAIT to go home. 5 days….

time is tickin!

I LOVE MY SMALL GROUP

we just spent the past 18 hours or so eating, talking, chillin, watching iris, and having a good time. i can’t express how thankful i am to get to know such an awesome group of girls. who are also very very DOWN. their downness took me by surprise, but i’m embracing it, loving it, and know that we’re gonna make the best of this year

life is good when you’re surrounded by the people you love, and you’re in your comfort zone. after 3.5 years here, berkeley has become my comfort zone and i don’t hesitate to call it my home. a lot of times, it feels more like home than home does!  6 months from now when i graduate and move back to the valley, life will be so different. will i be able to readjust?! haha i guess we’ll see.

this semester has been tiring. physically, emotionally, mentally. i’m drained and have no more energy to spend things other than what’s on my plate now. but i feel the urgency to soak in berkeley as much as i can! so i push myself to try to do more. i hope i don’t burn out……haha so here’s to making the best of what time i have left here!

empire state of mind

in new york, concrete jungle where dreams are made of
there’s nothing you can’t do
now you’re in new york, these streets will make you feel brand new
big lights will inspire you,

let’s hear it for new york, new york, new york~

 

 

winter break 2010. wheeeeee

6 am staff meetings?!

WHO DOES THAT?! hahah i don’t even go to my 8 am classes! my boss emailed me personally telling me i better show up. LOL

working at the pharmacy, i’ve come to realize just how dirty everything is. money is freaking dirty.  after handling registers for 4 hour shifts, i can feel the grossness on my hands and need to take a break to go wash them.  and people are so dirty too! haha we require people to sign a paper to confirm that they received the proper prescription. those pens on the table have been touched my numerous hands, most very dirty. also, i’ve developed a pet peeve! when people lick their fingers to count money or grab their credit cards. i understand it makes it a little easier to grab, count, whatever. but after seeing it so many times a day, and having the people hand the money/card over to me, i feel so infected with other people’s germss. yuck. haha i’ve become slightly germophobic

other than silly things like that at work, things have been good. i had a slight breakdown last week cuz i felt so overloaded with everything, but i feel like releasing that frustration helped, a lot. and i feel like God has been teaching me to let myself lean on the people around me, and not be so stubborn, because i really can’t do it all by myself i am so blessed. each and every day, i’m reminded of how good i have it. my family, friends, small group, class – life is good! i am so undeserving but God is so good. i was so frustrated with all the responsibilities and frustrations that i couldn’t see all the good things. but i see them now! and i’m so thankful

okay. that is all.

 

relief and stupidity

busy bee

omg it’s week 7. already?! as the excitement of the new year dies down, and things should be settling down, life for me has become busier, crazier, and more hectic than ever. I feel like such a burden to people around me, but also i feel burdened with different things too. i don’t know if i can handle it all! i just wanna stop everything for a minute, take a breath, and relax for 2 seconds, and re-energize. as i’m sitting here trying to study for my ib 131 midterm (NOT with diamond….so i’m screwed) i realize i have no motivation to start studying. instead i blog

being busy has made me skip meals. and i NEVER forget to eat my meals. hahah for example, today, i was stressing out about LiNK, midterm, sg, etc etc, that i realized at 4 pm that i hadn’t had anything to eat! my goodness. second time in my life where stress has kept me from thinking about food.

being busy keeps me from thinking about home. i have so many different responsibilities/obligations keeping my mind occupied that i can’t stop to think about how much i miss home. i haven’t been back home since may. i won’t go back til thanksgiving. that’s 6 months straight that i’ll have spent in the bay area. it makes me super sad. but i can’t tell my parents that, cuz then they’ll come drive up the next weekend just cuz i said i wanna see them. hahaah yeah, they love me. i miss them

being busy has also kept me from being a good friend. sorry friends! i’m really trying to balance everything! please forgive me if i don’t give you enough time or love. i promise next semester will be better.

being busy has made me less down. i’d like to say that i was one of the more down people up until this summer. haha” studying? it can waittt. let’s go play! or eat!”  but now, i fail at being down. studying has taken priority over playing. lol i guess it’s a good thing? but i miss those random nights!

haha i read a previous post of mine (i think it was from freshman year) and i talked about enjoying my walk to campus. ” the sun! the pretty flowers! the music! all so lovely” kind of post. hahaah now, i speed walk because my time is precious and i’m usually always late to wherever i need to go. oh how times have changed. senior year is SO DIFFERENT. but i guess that’s a post for another time.

okay. i don’t know what the point of this post was. i just didn’t wanna study. wheee. i guess after 3 hours of procrastinating, it’s time to get started. gbye

i just realized this now, but someone wrote on my whiteboard:

“you will amount to nothing” love, mom.

wtf? haahah who wrote this?! when?! why?!