it’s a stressful time right now, trying to figure out what to do with my life. hahah i mean, i kind of have a plan, but do things ever happen the way you plan it? i decided to take 2 years off before i (hopefully) go to grad school and so i guess that means 2 more years of over stressing, chilling, and hopefully doing something productive… hahaha when i get all worked up and start to panic, i try to think of the good things about being at home. no rent, no bills, laundry magically gets done, home cooked meals are the norm, etc. and then i realize, life is good! 
one thing that i’ve loved about being back home is how much time i’ve been spending with my parents. i love spending time with them. initially, there was a little bit of nagging, (mostly about my future and marriage, which they see as very important and urgent matters haha) but it died down real quick. i love eating dinner with them, learning more about them, making fun of them, and seeing their relationship dynamics. haha and maybe it’s because i feel all adult now, but i think i’m becoming friends with my parents its a lot of fun and it makes me smile a lot. and the reason i share this is because i developed a new appreciation for them. i’m so thankful for them and all the time we get to spend together
thinking about things like this that make me happy temporarily relieves the stress, and i fall into a “hmmm….i’m sure i’ll figure it out eventually…..” mentality. i enjoy life, make more happy thoughts, life becomes wonderful, everything is beautiful and then… it hits. things become TOO chill, and panic and stress set in. hahaah thus the whole stress/ escape through happy thoughts cycle continues. for now, that’s my life. haha and i really really REALLLY hope it all gets figured out soon!! that is all!
michelle..
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